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Room/life changes

Sat, 10 Sep 2022 11:02:52 GMT

I moved coop rooms a few weeks back, just to get back on the first floor, and then another housemate moved out, opening up the room I've always goddamn wanted, so I switched again. And in the process of moving season and multiple room switches, I ended up with a new nice mattress, and a decent wooden desk, shelves, and dresser. I finally got my shit moved, and it's the first time in far too long that I had a space that didn't feel like I was squatting or sharing my space. And it's an amazing experience.

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The post where I rant about loving my job

Thu, 28 Jul 2022 08:44:03 GMT

Y'all know I was out of the real workforce for a long time. Between the parenting gig, and then freelancing, elected coop jobs and working for my ex partner, my last real job was at fucking dennys. So wasn't optimistic about returning to real work. But this job that I fell into (after applying for jobs I didn't want and couldn't do, a housemate mentioned they'd gotten hired at this place and quit bc they need something more physical) this job is everything I could hope for in an entry level spot.

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Ugh money

Fri, 22 Jul 2022 00:58:27 GMT

I'm still struggling in general, but financially it's gotten even harder with this. I'm still training at work so not getting enough hours and a week out from that first check, and now with this death there's a couple extra expenses like getting phone service since we'd been on my ex's plan, and some money I am owed that will never be coming to me now.

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I got a job.

Sun, 26 Jun 2022 06:18:08 GMT

Like, a real job. At almost a living wage. That I am capable of, and that has hours I can actually work. It's the call center for an answering service, so taking messages and forwarding them as needed. So no face to face, no on my feet, mostly evenings and overnights, and no calling people at home and bothering them, like most call centers I've worked before. Super chill work environment, they get employees staying for like 10 years, which is such a good sign. 15 minute walk from my house,and they encourage you to bring in your laptop to watch movies or do homework, whatever between calls once you've got the hang of things. Option to go remote eventually, they've had people work for them for years, and keep the job when they move across the country.

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so wiscon sorta happened

Mon, 30 May 2022 23:09:42 GMT

I mean, it happened, but different and smaller. post con exhaustion was just as big, but that might be because I went in exhausted. The pandemic definitely killed most of the parties and casual social spaces, but there were still panels and speeches and such.

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Proud of my dinner

Tue, 01 Mar 2022 03:54:45 GMT

or Mav gives themself back pats for basic life functioning.

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The post about my job.

Wed, 03 Jun 2020 15:31:49 GMT

For the last 11 months, I've been an elected officer in the housing coop organization my house is a part of. It's a part time gig that pays exactly enough to cover the average rent in the org. Except it hasn't been so casual, and many months I made less than minimum wage if you look at how much time and emotional energy it actually was taking up. The organization is having a lot of problems so a lot of my time has been caught up in larger organizational bullshit instead of the focus of the office I was elected to. Like, I'm supposed to run educational workshops and set up trainings, and I've been constantly dealing with conflicts that should be either handled by the houses or go to the board of directors instead, andmahor bullshit about how power is centralized within the org.

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Idk man.

Wed, 03 Jun 2020 15:23:45 GMT

I'm not posting about the current fucked up shit here, other than my personal experience. There's nothing I can say that hasn't been said better by smarter people. I've been doing what I can to spread info on fb, and irl, and watching streams for most of my waking hours, except for when I've been out on the street.

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Changing my goddamn life

Fri, 15 Nov 2019 13:54:49 GMT

Went to Austin last week and was happier than I've been in years, even though I lost my phone and slept in a parking garage. Came back and realized how unhappy I've been, being stagnant here and caught in so much coop drama and responsibility, and decided we need to move to Austin. I've already found a coop down there that's a perfect fit and started the process of getting on their wait list for next fall. I need to be more employable because Austin is expensive and I won't have my support system, so I'm polishing up my skills, learning coding for real and hoping I find something.

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They've chosen the site

Wed, 12 Jun 2019 10:37:10 GMT

For the annual rainbow gathering, and it's even closer than I'd expected. Like, about 5 hours away, this side of lake Superior, right near where I was born. Still don't know how I'm getting there for sure, but I've got a few maybes, and lots of people are going to be passing through Madison on the way. I'm so excited. I'll be in the woods ywithin 2 weeks!

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Right, I have a blog for this

Thu, 30 May 2019 11:37:35 GMT

So one of my primaries has had a long time thing with this chick. Over a decade of her basically coming in and out of his life, causing huge drama, lying, cheating in the sense of getting into mono things with other people and then showing up at his place drunk and hooking up with him, finally leaving him for a guy who was abusive, having that guy's baby, and then wanting him back. Like, total shitshow.

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Soulmate is getting closer to death

Mon, 20 Nov 2017 07:13:05 GMT

Every weekend that I try to spend with him. Found out he has stage 4 lung cancer in the spring, have been trying to just enjoy whatever time I have with him since then, but he's getting sicker every time I see him. And he's trying so hard to hide it, but then he just seems miserable and angry at everyone. And that isn't who he is.

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holy crap

Wed, 22 Jun 2016 05:14:04 GMT

So, in the time since the fire, one of my housemates had ran off to rainbow, and came back when we opened up again. And then her and her rainbow boyfriend announced they were heading out for the national gathering in vermont, and I was like, "waaah, I want to go but I can't just jump in a van full of hippies with my kid and disappear for a couple weeks." and they talked more and more of my housemates into going. and last night they talked my best friend into going with the first group heading out tonight, and i was all "WAAAAAH, why can't I go?"

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Thu, 07 Apr 2016 08:10:28 GMT

So the last few months, along with dealing with the co-op, I have been vaguely helping to write a bigass novel length Interactive Fiction game based on my co-author’s experiences the summer of 2013, up to the house fire. It’s in the Spring Thing IF competition if anyone wants to check it out. It’s called Harmonic Time-bind Ritual Symphony, and I really like it.

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Home

Tue, 01 Mar 2016 08:54:22 GMT

We're home. Finally, really and truly, officially, back home. It's been a full week now, and I'm finally believing it is real this time after that whole thing in november where we got to come home but it was a mistake. But now it's real.

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Viva Lothlorien

Mon, 22 Feb 2016 20:57:07 GMT

I know I haven't posted in forever, But I finally have good news! After unfathomable delays, we go approved to move back home. I get to go home.

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I meant to update earlier

Mon, 14 Dec 2015 06:40:36 GMT

but the inspection was postponed, and they declared one more thing that the other inspectors said we didn't have to deal with has to be done before they will approve move in.

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Inspection today

Fri, 11 Dec 2015 12:14:20 GMT

to find out if we can finally move back in. We have to pass. We've done so much work, and it has been so long, and I just really hope the universe can come through for us on this one. I just want to go home.

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fuckfuckfuckfuck fuck this shit

Sun, 15 Nov 2015 23:06:38 GMT

So, there was, of fucking course, actually one more goddamn inspection that we somehow didn't know about before we were cleared to move back in for real. And we failed it, meaning we all have to move back out until we handle the last few things. And it is shit that we exempted the contractors from in order to get shit done faster, so we're doing this shit. It's all shit we can do, or hire people on our own, and I think we are more likely to do it fast than these fucking contractors, so we should be back in before too long. The first estimate was dec 1st, but we said fuck that, we're bringing in more people.

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Home

Wed, 11 Nov 2015 00:05:14 GMT

I've been too busy to remember to post this, but Lothlorien opened back up last thursday. It's still kind of a disaster, with one working shower in the whole place, among many other issues, but we're home.

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And a co-op update

Tue, 06 Oct 2015 09:10:58 GMT

Had a bigass house meeting and started working on house business. Have elected a bunch of the house jobs, (I have like 3 now, including alternate board rep and grievance elf), and got everyone up to speed on the status of the repairs. The contractors now say they will be done by the end of october. We are all trying very hard to believe them, and trying to figure out how we can make sure that shit happens.

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Tue, 30 Jun 2015 07:31:30 GMT

We had the special membership meeting on sunday, where we finally got a straight up membership vote on our proposal to sign contracts for rooms at loth to the five core members who are ready to sign and on the membershipping team. And it passed.

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You know what I am too fucking old for?

Fri, 05 Jun 2015 08:31:28 GMT

Performing in the rocky fucking horror.

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Tue, 02 Jun 2015 11:49:19 GMT

Dude, I totally have fucking pinkeye. PINKEYE! I caught a cold at wiscon, and it decided it wants to try living in my fucking eye.

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Thu, 28 May 2015 10:07:11 GMT

So you know how sometimes there’s some stupid movie you remember but can’t find what it was? One of mine was some horror sexual harassment comedy about a guy who was possessed or some shit, and all I really remembered was that at some point in the movie, someone told him “you’re not possessed, you’re pozatski.” So every couple of years I google for the term, and have never found anything.

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