fukkin hell

so we started cleaning out the mother in law's apartment today, and it was more horrifying than i had suspected. I don't want to talk further about it now, honestly I do not think I can.

after the first few mice, the hantavirus jokes started. after about ten, they weren't funny anymore. by the time I got home, went to the CDC website and saw how the symptoms go with the newer hantavirus pulmonary syndrome, which is not the one my friends dad had, and compared them to how she got so sick with no one knowing what was wrong, and fucking panicked. The right kind of mice don't live in people's houses here, and there has only been one case of HPS in wisconsin, but I am still pretty shook up. I mean, I was shook up anyway from her place, but it now looks entirely possible that what killed her was that, and that by cleaning up her place tonight, we would have stirred up actively virused mouse piss and infected ourselves.

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I'm starting to really wish I hadn't accidentally renewed my paid lj. I had autorenew set up, got cloudy about which date it was gonna go, and didn't turn off autopay in time.

and this shit makes me really wish I hadn't, because this is not a well intentioned fuckup, this looks like absolute bullshit