gratitude

I've been complaining a lot about what I don't have lately, so to straighten my head out the right way, I'm going to look at what i do have, I need perspective.

My fucking house, though it has caused temporary broke-itude, is still so seriously more awesome than I had ever realistically expected. People keep reminding me how "bad" the neighborhood is, although they use more colorful terms, and in any "nicer" neighborhood I couldn't afford a place this nice, with all this space, with this big of a yard and porch and all the goodies.

Weird as I thought it was when I found out who my neighbor was, I'm grateful for her. It's awesome to have an old friend next door, and she and I were tight for a long time in between the dramas. and she makes cupcakes. I haven't had as much time to spend with her as I could, but I'm enjoying the time I get.


I'm amazingly grateful for the new computer. I had not really realised how busted my old machine was even when it "worked" so having a fully functional machine is awesome. again, it's a nicer machine than I ever would have gotten on my own.

My friends. I think of myself as a total loner, and my brain gets stuck in the mode it was in for so long where I had no friends, but now I actually have an awesome assortment of real friends, not just people to hang out with so I'm not alone.


My kids. It's easy to get caught up in how much work they are, and how little time for myself I get because of them, but they are turning into such amazing people, my god, and I really do enjoy a lot of our times together, for all I crave alone time.


Z. he's pretty awesome for a big grump.

grrrrr

I hate the homeschooling thread in anon. i hate it like burning.