maevele | took a nap

things look slightly less horrible. if z has to get rid of some of his drums, so fucking be it, and if he resents me for it, maybe that's better than me resenting him for hanging on to the shit when we need the money. It's not like he's sitting on a lot of money's worth of gear, since it's mostly shit he got at yard sales, or craigslist, and duct taped together into what he needed it to be, but if he's down to get rid of it, it's a little something towards getting our shit straight, and we can go back to plan A where we don't need a fucking basement. And honestly, he makes most of his music, when he finds time anymore, on his computer. And we'll have to keep the drums he scored for the kids, even if they're in storage, so he won't be drumless.

No matter what, fuck the drama, and double fuck trying to place blame. Yeah, I fucked up. I did not fuck up in a vacuum.

We went and looked at another place tonight, and I kinda loved it, but it was at the very top of our price range, pretty far from everything, and only had one bathroom. I'm going to hope we get the place down the road, and worry about money once I know fo sure how much I need to come up with total.

Pobo told me tonight she doesn't even want to move, doesn't want her own room, but the rest of us need her to have her own room and are so ready to move and start fresh.