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[maevele]

for real, my anxiety is at the point where I want to smash m head against the wall to release the fucking pressure. I just cant make the RARRRRARRRRWRRR in my head stop for a minute. except its not a noise, its like, bees or something, or a demon trying to bash its way out.

really about to just lose it, need quiet, need alone.

drove to the thrift shop and back screaming along to ani and ministry, but even that didnt let it out.

fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck