Grrrrr

So this story I'm writing. (or, well, abandoning and unabandoning?) It's gonna take notes and research, I think, rather than just falling out of my damn brain as I write it scene by scene as it had been trying to. Because 14 pages in, and i have congruency problems.

I knew this mofo was gonna need notes, and I remember giving in and doing notes and sketches for the time spazziness, and now that i've loaded the story onto this computer, all my paper notes have left.

So i have to start over, and figure out how i had explained certain shit into earth logic. Either way, if i manage not to abandon it again, i may have a something finished by wiscon. If i knew how long it was gonna take to spin out the story i could figure out how much to develop the characters.


HQ says i should stop working on the time story and write the cannibal story he came up with the themes for, but I'm soooo close to figuring out what's really happening with this character, and her family.


/vent

erh

I want a journalfen acount.

also a pony.



no, i don't want a pony.

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It never even crossed my mind til now, even reading all of racefail, that it all should be really directly relevant to the story I'm working on. My protag is not white. She's mixed. I now can't decide if I should agonize over "writing the Other" or just keep writing her as I know her.

Seriously, as a whitegirl first time writer, the scared part of me says play it safe, make her white but that's succh an asshole move. I think she'd be pissed, and I feel like if I was lucky enough to get a character to come to me, I shouldn't fuck with her. Not to mention that there are interesting points bouncing around the story regarding her time issues and racial makeup. Although it certainly isn't about race.


But if I fuck it up, I promise not to explode when someone tells me so?

Mind you, the other main characters are 2 gay men, a drag queen, and an old white lady, so they're all "other" ain't they? I've been having a lot more concern about fucking up the gay men and drag queen than Maud's race.

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okay, i have ike 10 adam ant songs on my pod, but it always randoms me the same goddamn song.