Still not at the capitol

[maevele]

I keep thinking about how much I'd like to be there, to show solidarity, be a part of this moment and show the kids the power of protest. But I got no car, and kids in crowds without an easy out gives me the anx. Also, woke up all fucking periody, and full of back pain, so I'm sitting this shit out. Waking up with that means today is the day I'm supposed to call about getting my mirena, but my pap results aren't up on my chart yet, and I don't want to get the spike til I have that clear pap. I guess I could call and make the appointment and then cancel if my pap is a problem? Idk, once I make the appointment I have to frantically try to once again find a ride and someone to keep the kids while I get it put in, which aaaaugh. That is such a fucking thing.