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[maevele]

a couple of huge wiscon posts both general and personal, but am still catching up on time stuff from the con. But now I am back in huge financial freakout mode, and am completely out of options. I am overdrawn, not going to make rent, have 59 cents, and am panicking. It is official, I CAN NOT DO THIS. far as I have come, as much help as I have gotten, I still can not stay above water and I just hate myself for it. I am so fucked again. I don't know what to do.

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[sophygurl]

Don't hate yourself for it. It's not your fault. It sucks, but it's not your fault. I wish there was a way for me to help, but my main resource is to tell ppl about aid programs and I know you've already researched/applied for what you can.

[maevele]

Thanks. It's just so hard not to feel like I am failing.

[axelrod]

Going to post a thing to FB. Do you mind linking your legal name with your online handle? If you do, where should I direct people that's not your DW profile?

[maevele]

You can link it, my two names are all tied up to each other all over the internet. Thank you

[axelrod]

Signal boosted.

[maevele]

thanks darling

[axelrod]

wish I could do more

[jinian]

God, I am so sorry this is going wrong again. If we threw enough money at the backlog, would you be sustainable going forward, or is there something ongoing that's a problem?

[maevele]

I think at this point if I could get caught up for a hot minute, my income and the support from Z could cut it. I just can't get caught up enough to know that for sure.


edit: when I stop panicking and work the numbers I can see that if I were not behind, I'd be okay, yeah.